My mom told me I have talent but I’m not very good at “flaunting” it.
She said I have very low esteem that holds me back from doing what I’m good at.
Watching people make a GOOD living out of doing what they are best at cuts me real deep........ For me its art/drawing. It’s the only thing that truly gives me peace of mind.
I was cleaning my cupboard over the weekend and saw my old drawing books stuffed under piles of old dusty books. I managed to spend some time looking at them. I drew them when I was a teenager, I notice I drew a lot at the age of 15, had about 3 decent book of em. I know why though, back when I was 15 I was very sick and I had the worse temper at that time, I also remember my family was very uncomfortable to hold any conversation with me during that year, because of my temper I spend great amount of time alone in my room drawing stuff that comes pouring out of my mind.
I remember one particular drawing of a girl standing at the very top of the building looking down. Wind in her hair, I personally think it was the BEST drawing of all, its nothing fancy in fact it had very less details or shading yet to me that drawing means a lot.
So I’m thinking of saving some money and buying myself a good drawing tablet, since I’m good at expressing myself through drawing, it could start my private collection about me, and if I ever get married and have kids they could see what kind of person their mom was LOL J Honestly that last bit sounds CRAZY !!
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